The End of Chapter One
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Hello friends. My name is Dogentricks.com, and this is the end of chapter one.
I am not a child, youth, or teen. I am 21 years old and months away from college graduation. I am waiting to hear back from a serious position in the real world. I am thinking about and planning my future.
Everyday, I wake up aching. I look down at the figure I’ve created and consider accumulated damage. My right big toe is swollen and restricted from a fracture in high school. My left small toe is nearly immobile and discolored due to a simple gym mistake. My ankles are gnarled and tight. My tibia are lined with veins after two years of battling major shin splints with rigid conditioning. My right knee cap is pulled taught against my meniscus from a torn MCL and several years of patellar tendonitis. My left quadriceps are large and disproportionate from almost half a decade of unilateral moonkicks. My hamstrings lay relaxed after another recovery from more strains, sprains, and tears than I can count. My femur jostles my inflamed hip with every movement. My back aches; it wakes me in my sleep and keeps me paralyzed in fear of a future doubled over in pain. My abdominals are completely asymmetrical from four years of constant twisting to the left. My shoulder is rigid and pinches into the socket suddenly and without warning. My elbows are tight with tendonitis and my wrists are weak from landing on them with multiple times the weight of my body. My pale skin is scarred and worn from countless burns after hours in the sun, trying to land that one, last trick. I’ve been to the doctor a dozen times, gone through thirty-six sessions of physical therapy, and had six X-rays and four MRIs.
I have nothing left to break.
My name is Dogentricks.com and this is the end of chapter one. It kills me to say, but upon graduating from college this June, I will quit tricking. My eyes are literally filling with tears as I write these words – this is something I have no want to do, but know it must be done. I cannot justify a lifetime of chronic, full-body pain. Tricking is without any doubt the source of my injuries and the reason I ache every waking minute. I have to quit if I want to walk in my thirties, I have to quit if I want to swim in my late twenties, and I have to quit if I want to regain the ability to run, now. This is the inevitability I have blocked out for years.
I’ve known for a long time when I would quit tricking, but recently the reality of abandoning quite literally my heart and soul has become very tangible. The idea of a life without tricking has given me anxiety attacks and a need to release the constantly building pressure in my chest.
So today, I want to write an entry about tricking, and its place in my life.
My name is Dogentricks.com, because of tricking.I discovered tricking some time toward the end of junior high. I was searching around the internet, looking up cheat codes for Tenchu 2. By accident, I stumbled across a website known as Trick Busters. The first link I clicked brought me to a 6 second clip of a short Asian girl named Alyssa performing a ‘butterfly.’ Alyssa glided across the floor, gracefully dipped her body, then leaped into the air. There, she floated, slowly and beautifully wrapping around her center of gravity. Landing without a sound, Alyssa turned toward the camera and smiled.
Something twisted in my stomach, hard. How did she do that? In an curious, almost frantic state I began clicking every link on the website. Within an hour I watched all the videos on Trick Busters and subsequently overrode their daily bandwidth. When I went to watch the last clip and “error 401, exceeded bandwidth” came up, I nearly threw my mouse. I had to have more! What was this? Why could seemingly normal people do things like this? This isn’t real; this can’t be real. This is what people do in movies with wires. Why could Alyssa trick? How long had she been training? What is going on?!
In that state of troubled confusion, I seemed to subconsciously evaluate my existence. “Each day I count down the hours until I get home to instant message my friends about things I won’t remember one week from now. Meanwhile, there is this group of ‘trick busters’ who are living among the clouds. These guys are so cool! There is no one who wouldn’t think these guys are cool! I mean, they ARE cool! They are literally flipping around like it is a completely normal thing; they are effortlessly performing physical acts which people pay to see in a movie, and for fun!” Trick busters: We are a group of kids in the bay area. We love training tricks! We are trick busters! Thanks for visiting our site!
I had been caught red handed. I was looking up cheat codes for a technique in a video game – a technique that any of the trick busters, real humans, could perform with ease. I felt embarrassed and worthless. I felt I had nothing to prove in life. A trick buster wouldn’t waste their time laughing at me. It was the most frustrating and upsetting moment of my life.
For that, I am thankful. Tricking became part of me from that day forward.
I woke up the next day and immediately did as many pushups as I could. I had a banana for breakfast and did calf raises while brushing my teeth. I got on the bus, put on my headphones, and thought about nothing but tricking until I arrived at school.
I told everyone about it. “Have you ever heard of tricking? It’s so sick!” Of course, nobody was interested. What did it matter if a group of kids, hundreds of miles away, were apparently capable of performing some flips? “No, it’s not like that, these guys are insane! You have to see the way they move! These guys are different!” Nobody at my school could understand my enthusiasm, and for good reason – nobody at my school had ever seen or heard of tricking. This was 8 years ago, well before myspace, youtube, or Ong Bak, for that matter. This was well before even I knew what tricking truly is. But, I was already hooked.
I had to learn. Everyday tricking was the only thing on my mind. I was in my backyard constantly doing cartwheels and in my play room burning my back trying to windmill on old, faded carpet. My frail, stiff body quickly tired and absolutely shut out the idea of any aerial techniques. I don’t care! I need to learn this! I continued everyday for over a year, slowly but surely developing my body and confidence.
It’s time. I need to learn this tricking; I need to learn the butterfly. I devoted everything I had to the technique. I fell on my side countless times; i looked like a fool stumbling over at the park, over and over again. Regardless of that, I became more familiar with the technique and gradually sharpened my form. Cleaner, cleaner, cleaner.
Hey Dad. I know what I want for my birthday: a digital camera. With this, I’ll be able to see myself, and analyze my technique. Sure son, what model do you want? This one’s nice.
Jesus, my technique was far from clean! It wasn’t even close to a butterfly; it was more like a fat caterpillar. I had to fix this. I had to practice more. So I practiced, all the time. I practiced flinging my body from high to low to high again and again, and again. Was it impressive? No, not really. Was it something that everyone could do? Probably, but it would take them practice. Oh wait, oh my god!
I just landed my first butterfly! I just landed my first trick!

I was 15 years old and had spent more than a year and a half on mindless training. I did innumerable pushups, loads of crunches, and countless cartwheels. I had trained in an ignorant almost counter productive fashion, but it finally produced results. I could do a butterfly, and it was clean. My friends approved. “Hey, that’s actually pretty cool, do you think you could teach me?” Yes, I thought to myself, I could teach you – BECAUSE I CAN DO IT!!
With the passing of time came knowledge about tricking. I learned about the origins of the sport, current practitioners, and various techniques. I had a copy of the infamous ‘wushu’ video, and became an active visitor to bilang and tricks tutorials. I spent every free second watching tricking videos or training. Tricking was, more than ever, the center of my life. I began to learn about proper training habits from my older, close friend Nic Nichols, who was an active body builder. I cleaned up my diet and refined my training. I began to see change, but it was too slow for me. I wanted to be better, now.
I joined my school’s all girl gymnastics team. Yes, I was laughed at by everyone and it was hard. But, tricking was everything to me and I was willing to sacrifice my social life for it. I sat in the cafeteria everyday after school for two and a half hours, patiently waiting for wrestling practice to end and gymnastics practice to start. I was surrounded by girls and told to do split leaps and pirouettes, often in the presence of the wrestling team. Whatever, I was improving. In my first season of gymnastics I significantly developed my strength, flexibility, and coordination. Even if no one knew it, I was no longer a nerd. I had become an athlete, and I was proud of it.

I became more intwined in the online tricking community and befriended the likes of Turkeyman, Empire, Waterboy, Spike, Crazy Asian, Furious Angle, and Ceopopeye. I even got Steve Terada’s screen name, but didn’t dare send a god like him a message. I often got into tricking chat rooms and became an active member on the then very young, very small Tricks Tutorials forums. I read every article I could find on anything related to resistance training, flexibility, and nutrition. I scolded my parents’ lax eating habits and rid my diet of anything artificial. I was learning the essence of dedication.
Jeff Shearer, one of my closest friends, got a trampoline during my junior year of high school. I was well conditioned and highly motivated, and spent literally days and nights at Jeff’s house on the trampoline. After weeks of visualization, I finally sacked up and went for my first backflip, ever. My training paid off; the move came quick and naturally. My body had learned how to invert itself and hang in suspension. An indescribable ecstasy took over – I was making real progress. Some of the warmest moments of my youth were spent on that trampoline. Thanks, Jeff.
No, I don’t want to stop here. Everything I’ve done so far has only made me happier. I don’t care about looking cool anymore, this is about being the best I can be. I want to advance like all the other tricksters. I want to flip like Waterboy and kick like Turkeyman. I need to learn the backflip on ground. Dad, come here. Ryan, stand there. Ok, just flip me, ok? 1…2..3!!
I could do standing backflips on the grass within two months. Kevin, the same skinny guy doing cartwheels from one year before, was now the only guy at school who could backflip. Off of benches, in the cafeteria, in my backyard – I did them everywhere. My close knit group of friends became hooked. Day after day, Rob, Ryan, Jeff, Wilson, Hunter, Sasha, and myself would gather in my backyard and practice tricking. We jumped over trash cans, flipped onto Rob’s lawn chair cushions, and crashed on our backs. We had the time of our lives and escaped from the stress of school, work, and family.
When gymnastics began next year, a group of guys showed up to practice. Nic, Rob, and Ryan all came to practice on a regular basis. Hunter and I joined a new fitness gym only minutes from my house. My progress began to accelerate from the presence and encouragement of friends. Wall flips, aerials, side flips, gainers, websters, front flips, and 540s all became part of my rapidly expanding tricking repertoire. Every school dance, I owned the floor after tearing things up with a flash kick or gainer. I became the authority for flips at Redmond High School and was approached by many students eager to learn. The social highlight came when an article was published in the newspaper about tricking and its place in my life.
During my last year of high school I began commuting to Emerald City Gymnastics twice a week. Mondays and Wednesdays were nights for tricking and the only thing on my mind every other day. Each cent from my part time job went into the twenty-five dollar, ninety minute gym sessions. Here, I met Aaron, the best coach and mentor I have ever had. Aaron was an olympic skier and inhumanly fit. The man could jump onto a swiss ball half his height and balance as if it was nothing. He performed double jumps, in real life. Moreover, he taught me to be confident in myself and follow my dreams. Aaron pushed me to my mental limits and convinced me it was possible to do anything if only I believed in it. His coaching brought me into a world of tricking beyond that of the trick busters.
My senior year, I learned gainer fulls, the technique of my dreams. It was a move I literally thought to be impossible only a few years earlier. I became so confident in my gainer fulls I threw them on concrete, at school, and even at a rave under a field of flashing lights. I had support, ability, and potential. College applications were done and classes were easy; training became my only focus. Larry Chen, (now known as Rizzice) a local guy interested in tricking, contacted me through the tricks tutorials forum and quickly assimilated into our group. Tricking was everything. I began making video tutorials and trying moves few people had ever landed. The only memory from my fourth year school is a blur of sensations: the bass from Rob’s decked out Focus, the sweet, tangy smell of a fresh Monster soda, and the incredible high of training with friends. That summer, I spent almost everyday with Larry at the beautiful waterfront in Kirkland. They were the best days of my life. Thanks, Larry.
Just before moving out for college I got a mail from a young, talented man named Jonathan Pierce. “Hey Dogen, I’m going to be moving up to Seattle for a while. We should get together and train.” Larry and I met Jon in August at the University of Washington. It was the first time I met someone who was better than me at tricking, and it completely floored me.
My motivation sky rocketed. I upped my training and swore to myself – I’m going to catch up with Jon. I need to get this good. The sampler Jon released later that year became my favorite tricking video of all time; to this day, it continues to motivate me. Jon, Larry, Nathan and I formed Team BT late that summer and tricked all the time, everywhere.
I entered UW September, 2005. Within weeks I befriended the ever amiable Ben Friedman, Bobby Nguyen, Tylee Chen, and Nathan Ma, a group of break dancers and the best guys I know. We trained 3 times a week together in Mat Room A, polishing our skills to the undeniably catchy thump of a break beat. In spring, I tricked in the quad under the beautiful cherry blossoms and made sampler after sampler, day after day. Visitors began to come from other schools and cities to train with me and Larry. My tricks were clean, fast, and powerful. Everyday I felt fantastic.
Everyday I woke up and thought, “I love the world I live in. I love training. I would not trade my life for anything – not anything.” I felt I was becoming a little bit better than the person I was the day before. Many of my fraternity brothers partied night after night, bellowing and bragging about the high number of women they were able to fondle in a drunken stupor. I laughed from a distance and continued to train; my world was completely locked. The thought of drinking or partying, the mere idea of tainting my structured lifestyle, was absolutely out of the question. My concentration, love for training, and will for progress created an invisible, and yet almost tangible wall of determination. I loved every minute of it.
My fraternity brother and great friend Austin Wang suggested I create a tricking website at the end of my freshman year. I loved the idea and we began working on it immediately. If you’re reading this now, there’s a high possibility you know about the website and what it has become. So, if you’re reading this now, then I have to say thank you for your support. The website has flourished into a popular tricking/Japan interest community and a means of self expression for myself and hundreds of others. Thanks Austin, means a lot.
Taimatsu surprised me with a quick visit from Alaska during my first summer at college. Despite being sore from work (now teaching kids at Emerald City Gymnastics), we had two incredible, high energy sessions. His aggressive tumbling abilities and bright outlook provided two days of non-stop adrenaline and laughs. Thanks, Taimatsu.
My second year of college followed suit with more relentless training. Before my 8:30 classes I biked to gym with Scott Winges and performed endless water-based dynamic training. In the afternoon we lifted together and went to Cascade Elite Gymnastics with Jake for rings training, group stretching, and full body workouts. The results were absolutely tremendous. I quickly flattened my front splits and developed immense upper body strength. I could perform ten handstand pushups without any form of support, climb a full rope twice without my legs, and do twenty pull ups without breaking a sweat. Most of all, my tricks were the best they have ever been. Larry and I were called from Canada to attend a small gathering.
The BC gathering was one of the greatest experiences of my life. Larry and I drove up to Vancouver BC and tricked with Reim, Reza, Leim, Daryl, and Ryan, for three days. Our gym session was out of this world – it was unquestionably the most pumped I have ever been. I landed several new moves and combos, and met a bunch of new tricksters who shared my passion for development. Despite abrupt introductions, we were best friends within minutes, rattling off tricking lingo like a second language. This is where I belong. This is who I am. I love this.
Just before my study abroad, I compiled a sampler from all my best college footage. It was the second major sampler I ever made and the first I was truly proud of.
Though my focus was shifted to study, I continued to trick in Japan and maintain training. I met guys from all over, including the country’s best, Kambe Yukata and Andy Koji.
I tricked under the blooming Sakura in Shinjuku, alone in a quiet park next to a castle, and in front of my favorite band. Even halfway around the world, tricking was the best thing I could show for myself, and the best thing I could show for America. “This is tricking, it’s a new sport born in America. Why not train together?” I became actively involved with the Keio dance team, Jade, and taught many of their members. Tricking provided me a free pass through the traditionally closed doors of Japan’s tight knit culture.
I came back to the states early August 2008 and resumed all my efforts on tricking. Since then, DK, Kaden L, Justin G, and a handful of others have honored me with several out of states visits to Seattle. Thank you guys, you truly cannot imagine what it means to me.
Tricking with Dan and Larry

In the Quad with Justin

After tricking with Kaden
Even without the tricking, the fact I was able to meet these guys makes me truly proud to have this website. I had the time of my life with all of you. Thank you.
I can’t count how many times I cried while writing this. My life for nearly a decade now has been dedicated almost exclusively to tricking. All of my best memories, everything I have to be proud of, it is all a direct result of tricking. Tricking gave me confidence, a respectable body, the ability to focus my will, and absolutely above all, the most amazing friends I could ever ask for.Regardless of the fact that I am not a talented trickster, the reality I spent my entire college life completely and utterly dedicated to athleticism, and the notion I may have ruined up to decades of my later life due to injuries, I love tricking. No matter what job I land or who I meet – no matter what happens to me for the rest of my life, I will never forget, regret, or bemoan one second I spent tricking. Tricking is the core of my character and absolutely the best thing that ever happened to me.
My final countdown ends this June. Until then,
Train hard.


April 4, 2009 am30 10:24 am
Though it saddens me a great deal, I understand why you are stopping.
However, before you throw in the towel for good, I hope you would grant me the privilege of tricking with you one last time this summer.
April 5, 2009 am30 10:10 am
The passion you perfectly describe touched me inmensely. It saddens me to not have discovered tricking earlier, because I’m just starting, and you are ending, and even though I don’t know you, now there won’t be a moment in time where we could share this passion that is now starting to grow inside me.
Thanks Dogen, best of luck and success in everything that’s coming.
April 5, 2009 am30 8:22 pm
We will all miss you Dogen. Everybody in Australia will miss you.
I remember sitting in my library in year 10 hacking through the school’s internal website blocker to watch your tutorials on blocking and so my vids you have hosted. I am currently in my 4th year o tricks and started gym last year and looking to start a tricking class when we finally get our new gym built.
Without all those insightful tutorials and amazing vids you hosted I would probably not be where I am today.
I know I at least mourn your loss.
Australia will miss you.
April 5, 2009 am30 8:29 pm
-Dogen
Your the man. I can’t even tell you how much you and your website has changed me as a person. I really hope you, Larry, Nick, Justin and I can all get together and trick before your tricking time runs out so that we can say goodbye at least before you run off into the world and make a name for yourself somewhere else… Plus, I’d love to get the chance to bust some moves with you guys again because I learned so much and had a BLAST!!!!
April 6, 2009 am30 7:19 am
Word’s cannot describe how sad this makes me, although I understand where you’re coming from. I still remember writing that e-mail to you a year ago, so I don’t probably have to explain too much how much Dogentricks.com has affected my life. Reading you blog brings tears to my eyes, the immense passion and dedication you posses for tricking, I wish I had that kind of passion for anything. Your passion has kept me going for 2 years now, pushing my limits to reach the goals im striving for. Just when I was again about to give up the dream of tricking due to my injuries, this blog entry has made me feel more passionate than I have ever felt in my life. I hope that you will find other fields to use as an outlet for you passion. I use the word “passion” a lot, because that’s how I see you as a person. Someone with the greatest passion to do his best in everything he does.
Thank you Kevin, you truly are a great person.
April 6, 2009 am30 12:54 pm
Guess everyone’s gotta stop someday, but I’m sure your writing will take you farther into the future. Good luck.
PS: Will DogenTRICKS.com still stay up?
April 7, 2009 am30 8:53 am
we have shared a very similar tricking journey.
except i trained a lone for the first couple years and replace “trick busters” with “juji + bilang”.
i can say though, having not trained seriously for about 3 years now.
it is only when you stop training, that the real pain sets in.
i am now getting into training again and the pain seems to go away almost instantly.
so while you may not be pursuing your ultimate goal anymore, you should never cease to train. weight training, running and tricking are all excellent ways to stay young. you gotta be smart about it though, train tricks less intense, warm up deep and cool down deep.
i just hate to see people say they are quitting due to pain and preventing future harm [waterboy and now you].
i mean you are the one who tried to bring the idea of preventative care into the community.
once a tricker, always a tricker.
but if you truly are giving it up I wish you only the best of luck in your future endeavors. If you approach them with only half the amount of passion you did tricking, you will be sure to succeed.
April 8, 2009 am30 1:42 pm
I have never posted on your site, but have visited it a lot of times. I’m not a tricker or gymnast. I just like people that inspire me by showing the world that limits are meat to be broken.
I trully hope you find something else to focus on, and want to give you great thanks for the legecy you will leave behind for years to come. A legecy of inspiration and passion.
Know I’ll go get that Ankel Tutorial that was the reason I came back this time. I’m posting it on another forum, again
April 10, 2009 am30 2:35 pm
Hi Dogen/Kevin
Again i’ve been a fan of your site for sometime but never left comments, mainly because i couldn’t think of anything useful to say and I’m not too good with words.
It saddens me greatly you had to make such decision. All i want to say is THANK YOU for how much you have done for me and the tricking community. Your writing had always been a joy to read and your attitude to life had been such an inspiration. It still amazes me how mature someone so young can be.
I have every faith in your ability to succeed which ever path you choose in life.
All the best and I hope one day you would be able to enjoy tricking once again.
April 10, 2009 am30 4:00 pm
Dogen, you are by far the most influential person I have ever met in the tricking world. Your dedication and passion, as well as outstanding character and kindness is unmatchable.
It hurts to see you not able to trick anymore, but hopefully you’re still around.
You are surely among the gods of trickers.
April 12, 2009 am30 1:42 am
Dogen, honestly you were one of my favorite guys to trick with, ever.
I’ve been hanging out with many a tricker since, and before you, and the memories of those three rockin days we had will never leave. Thanks for such a generous mention of me in your chapters. I appreciate that more than you realize. I am to this very day, a huge fan of you, your tricking, your commitment, and your passion. I can only hope to hang out with you agin in the future.
-alaskaman Tai Guy (chee chee aah!)
April 12, 2009 am30 2:25 am
yo kevin i love you man, i wish you luck in reaching all your goals and success in your life. you blessed me with friendship and ill never forget it.
April 12, 2009 am30 1:39 pm
Dogen,
You have inspired me in so many ways it’s impossible to mention all of them in this short time I’m talking. You’ve taught me how to condition myself and trick in a smart manner so I won’t get hurt and am always up for a challenge
Thanks for being there,
Josh
April 15, 2009 am30 2:51 pm
Dogen:
You don’t know who I am; I have never posted a comment on an entry or a video. I’m not a member of the forums here, or on any other tricking website for that matter. I don’t belong to the online tricking community. Despite that, I’ve been tricking, very slowly building my confidence and move-set, for the past several years. I started tricking with a group for the first time about a month ago.
I just wanted to say that your a huge influence on my tricking. I used to watch samplers of you, and Jujimufu, every single day my senior year of high school. I think this entry is an amazing look at how tricking has effected your life and something we can all learn from, look to, and be influenced by.
Thanks for everything you have done.
-Adam
April 16, 2009 am30 8:40 pm
Hey Kevin
Don’t quit.
April 19, 2009 am30 6:27 pm
This is really sad news man… dunno what to say. I’m dealing with my own problems right now that keep me away from tricking. Hopefully I’ll get back to it eventually. I enjoyed tricking with you when I had the chance. Your tuts and other articles really made an impact on myself and the rest of the community. One question: Do you think there’s anything you could do to prevent the injuries you’ve gotten from tricking? Any advice for people who are still relatively healthy?
Anyway, good luck with the rest of your life and hopefully we’ll meet up sometime along the way.
April 20, 2009 am30 8:07 am
Sorry for the stupid question Dogen, but have you tried something like acupuncture.. I don`t know but I`v heard this helps no matter what sickness you have.
this is just oppinion,
I know how you feel, everytime I have an injury, fall bad or something like that, the first think that goes in my mind is ”Will I be able to trick, to jump, to practise martial arts now… This is my life… I can`t stop If the injury is serious I`ll make everything to heal and trick again… ”
Uhh no matter Dogen, you`r the best.
April 22, 2009 am30 12:00 pm
Dogen,
I was once undisciplined and lacking any sort of structure to perpetuate my tricking progress, but your tricking tutorials inspired me to explore beneath the surface of this art we all love. Your tutorials have always had a unique feel to them. Honest, inquisitive, kinda exploratory. I learned to look at tricking from any and all angles by watching and rewatching your videos.
Regardless of the topic, I’ve always placed a premium on understanding how to think, and your contributions to the tricking community almost single handedly crafted the lens through which I view tricking. Thank you for all the work you’ve contributed to the community.
April 22, 2009 am30 1:18 pm
Good day everyone.
Hello Dogen.
I would like to say something about me and the influence of Dogentricks.com on me.
The first time, I came to this website, was thanks to some parkour forum, where were the links for CoG and Blocking tutorials. Those videos amazed me, because of the simple and telling way you wrote them. I’ve been visiting your site for more than 3 years from that day, reading your blog entries about your life, tricking, music, family, girlfriends, and Japan.
I respected you for your attitude on life, tricking and relationships, which are very close to mine.
Thanks to you, I and thousands (maybe even more!) started tricking. Moreover you, and your work here, have made those people better persons, giving them a new life goal, or at least a light on the end of tunnel.
I understand your passion and joy for tricking, and the more I am sad and confused with this blog entry. If this is the very end of your world famous tricking career, it is very sad and discouraging to all tricksters who know you (but still real). Who knows, maybe one day (me, or more) will write a post about you, dogentricks.com and trickstutorials like you did about Softball, Akikane and TrickBusters. I am sure it will happen.
I wish you only the best, and hope you get all your trouble cured. “Hope this helps. Peace.”
Dandanik
P.S.: Please keep going this website, at least as a source of information and forum. We will always come back!
April 24, 2009 am30 2:34 am
Hey Dogen.
I have followed your blog and your site for a few years, at least since 1.0, and I would be lying if I said I wasn’t surprised and a little sad about this post. It came online about the time I began my parkour journey, and despite the differences in the disciplines I kept reading because your spirit seemed to align with mine; but always further ahead – a target on the horizon to aim for.
So maybe your body is burnt out. I am a great believer in change, and I feel that with great care you would be able to train yourself back to health. And in some part I think that would be the best course, but I also think…why? It also strikes me that you are (tentatively) ready to move on, to apply that spirit to something else.
But I wish you the best in whatever you choose to do. I’m sure you’ll attack it with more dedication and heart than anyone else I could name.
Etre et durer.
To be and to last.
Peace.
April 27, 2009 am30 7:35 pm
You’re not quitting, you’re making a strategic break to recover from injuries. Nothing is permanent, just as life and health aren’t necessarily going to be there forever, injuries and malformities don’t have to be there forever either. We’re going to learn more and more, more about how to heal things and enhance rehabilitative speed, and about prehabing.
You mentioned running and swimming, those are still athletic things. You still have a desire to remain active and healthy and build progressive skills. These are two useful forms of movement!
You’re a really cool guy Dogen, you’re one of the big three (right in between Js, and you had a tutorial on J-step so…) guys I look up to, and you always will be.
April 29, 2009 am30 8:36 am
Crazy. I had been away for a while, then back to find the forums down, then back to find them up, and a shocking blog to greet my return. Where to begin? I’ve seen a parallel of myself in you more than once. When I began my primary discipline of bboying I had limited understanding of physical fitness, and more specifically of how it relates to the dance. Despite the fact that I was in pretty good shape when I started, I incurred a larger number of injuries within the first several years than most other bboys that I knew or heard of. As time went on I was exposed to and began to assimilate everything I could from the universe of physical preparation and conditioning. Your Ti ankles tutorial was a catalyst for me to realize that though I did look at my training more closely than I had in the past, I was still not where I needed to be as far as thinking critically of every aspect of my training. Again, I thank you for this, for it seems we both began our respective journeys into tricking and bboying with no more than a passionate desire to learn, and have emerged with a bounty of knowledge that was previously invisible to our senses. When we began our disciplines, if either of us had been aware of even a fraction of what we now know, the incidence of injuries would have been greatly reduced, and we might be looking at ourselves as very different selves.
Again, I see a reflection of myself. A deep interest and admiration for east Asian, and more specifically for Japanese culture. You’ve accomplished what I set out to do but failed. Two years of Japanese language in college and no study abroad program have left me without the knowledge and experience that I wanted very much to make a reality. And it seems that there are a number of others out there who share the same feelings of connectedness to the island culture, as previous blogs attest. The inclusion of your escapades in Nippon to this site have given me a glimpse of the surreal, and hope for the future.
I can see your reasoning clearly. With a college degree and a promising career ahead of you, the very real risk of serious injury from a hobby (albeit THE hobby that has helped you define yourself) poses far too great a threat to your future livelihood. Not to mention you are self-preserving enough to realize that you do want to be able to stay physically active for many years to come. Still, a part of me hopes to see you one day having recovered from your injuries and set enough in life to be able to resume the tricking. Hah, a part of me hopes to have a session with you someday. Perhaps neither will come to fruition. We shall see.
Either way, with your efforts and intensity you have progressed the tricking community in many ways, I for one am immensely grateful and thankful for your having done so. Many would not be where we are today without you. Whatever your future holds, I wish you all the best. I am certain that you will make for yourself the best of anything you set out to do.
April 30, 2009 am30 11:16 am
You’ll be nostalgic about it. You’ll be back. It’s only foolish to say you wont, and keep yourself from it like a stubborn old man.
Thanks for everything though.
May 5, 2010 am30 11:34 am
Dogen i hope you see this someday, i really feel bad for you but my father taught me one thing if u love something that much you can get on your feet whatever happens and i know how it feels to have all this pain , but always remember this:
**Pain is temporary, Quiting is Permanent **
this what keeps me on my feet ,
think about it , choose well